STPM is actually...

So finally, i am having STPM. wow blogging in da middle of stpm so smart kah fai! WOO HOO.
But seriously, i must let the world know how is this test known to be ON OF THE FUCKIN HARDEST IN DA WORLD!!!
AISHEH proud moment **blushes**
Honestly, just like for UPSR,PMR, and SPM i barely touched anything. Rushed like a mad cow a week before the real thing and get straight A's.
I told myself..look kah fai. STPM is on of da hardest exams in da world. YOU DON'T WANNA SCREW THIS!!! NOOOOO!!!
But needless to say, i am a smart ass.
-played with my ipod in tuition all da time
-sleep in class all da time
-played with joyce,barney,sophia,wen yi,su hui, caryn, sim, henry, ben, micheal, luke and yada yada all da time
-dance practice all da time
-hang out all da time
-became a  vain pot all da time
Everytime before exam omg rush rush rushhhh.
But not bad, i can still get top 3 in the whole form. Even managed to get first once.
BUT STPM.
haizz. As usual i studied a week before. and honestly let me tell u. i dun know if i will get killed for saying this.
I find STPM easier than SPM.
maybe it's just me. :/ But the papers were not really hard, it is because i didnt study much haha. no mind blowing questions. and hey i can manage through most of the questions.
I DO NOT KNOW IF I CAN GET AN "A" FOR EVERYTHING!
But hey i am just saying it's not that bad, i could manage it better than SPM.
So yeah. two more weeks and THAILAND HERE I COMEEEEEEE.
I am going to Thailand representing Malaysia for a dance competitionnnnn.
EXCITEDDDDD!! 
 and for my readers...

 
 A recent picture with Mummy and ma sister Japanese booth style. :D
I hope stpm ends soon so i can finally move on and strive for my dream haha. 
hear from me soon bahbaiiiii

My skin tone

This is a random pose to show u how i have become from a dark child to a normal chinese toned child. LOL
You know how asians have this craze about getting fair snow like skin. Well i don't need no fair skin but my skin tone ever since i was a kid was like DARK BROWN . When i went to Japan for my student's exchange program a Japanese uncle actually asked if i was from Indonesia cause i was..yea dark =.= **SCREAMED IN MY HEAD A LITTLE**.
and i have always been quite a vain person and getting vainer every single day haha.
so one day i watched this Thailand movie and there was this soap called tamarind soap used in the movie that a girl used every single day until she became fair. Like from dark brown to actual vanilla.
So as usual i thought ,"PUHLEASE MUST BE A GIMMICK!!"
But my Thai friend Thanya said it actually works if u use it diligently.
So what the heck.
So i started using using and before i know it. One year plus passed by and i finally realized the results today. 
So here's a comparison.
Both these photos i took using the Japanese photo booth aka Purikura machine.
the are suppose to make u look good haha so i did it.

 

As you can see. the machine actually made me a tad bit fairer. i was let's say two shades darker LMAO. compare my skin tone to my foster Japanese brother's skin tone. You can see i am yea. darker LOL. i kinda look like a Malay guy huh? That was me, 2009 in Japan being mistaken as an Indonesian. Ughhh LOL

AND NOW IN 2012 upon using the tamarind soap for one year plus.

 

Look at me!! the down left corner! Yup that's me. With the same machine but. LOL i can't believe i am saying this. I look so much FAIRER wow. :D i am as fair as Sophia the girl next to me and she is like one of the fairest girl in school LOL The soap is not a gimmick. Or sometimes i wonder maybe it's never the soap or maybe i just grew out of melanin haha. You never know :D

But nevertheless, at least ppl look at me and know and recognize me as a Chinese or sometimes a Japanese which is good enough for me muahahahaha. LOL.
If u doubt that maybe the machine for 2012 is different you can look at the guy above me who has a darker skin shade. His shade now is about the shade i had in 2009.

So believe it or not.
IT WORKED. LOL The tamarind soap company should so find me as an ambassador cause i am solid prove haha. :D

SO thanks for reading my yet another random post. Till next time readers BYE :))

Life turning point

Life has been really hectic.
Now i just wanna point out that i have this major major exam in my country in like 2 weeks time. Freakin STPM is finally here after waiting for it 1 year plus
Let's just say i never expect i would come this far, i never did.

                                           My mood currently ^ THERE LMAO

Went i first came in i was just like let's just get an average score and enter uni. I did not really study hard or whatsoever. But things started blooming and i got like 1st place in lower six!! i was like. maybe i had it in me all this while. :/ my mind was growing maybe? LOL
And my streaks of better than average scores continues in upper six. LOL boy was i surprised.
i thought at 18 i was going to put down studying and go all out doing castings to be signed in a talent agency but i ended up in form 6. and boy was God really really kind haha.
Now 2 months left and i will be 20. and i start asking myself what will i be doing next.
Honestly i missed out several really good chances while doing form 6. I've already been scouted twice but there is form 6. That was like my breaking point. I actually chose form 6!! over my actual dream.
My friends are telling me i will definitely get my chance again? the thing is..will i? I just don't know at this point. It's just so scary. Will i be too od?? Will i lose my talent??. I don't have any other talent other than being an entertainer and it's just messing with my head really bad these few days. UGHHH I don't want to be stuck with a career that displays major DULL JACK IMAGE ya know. :/
But i am so glad i met a few individual souls who helped me and guided me so much during these hard times. YOU KNOW WHO YOU AREE!! LOL. C****, J****, J******, C**********,A****,S***** I actually got 1st in the form, won a dance competition, won my public speaking contest. I thought form 6 would be like BLEAK from head to toe but it was such an enjoyable ride.

SOOO!! i told myself..kah fai, just get STPM over with and u shall work hard for your dreams next year onwards. I always tell myself don't stop when you are tired, stop when you are done!!
and my dear readers you shall too! :D thus my turning point in life will be happening soon.

WISH ME LUCK AND I AM WISHING ALL OF YOU WHO IS CURRENTLY READING THIS!! KICK SOME MAJOR ASS YAWWWW :D

THE SKY IS THE LIMIT!! Yes that is me :D and FYI that was the first shot the camera clicked and it was this cool!! haha syok sendiri